28 June 2009 . 4:02 PM

Yessar, back to school today night(: finally! It's gonna be a tiring week, matches on monday and wednesday night. Missing cf!): But its somebody's birthday(:


Happy birthday!


Hope you like your present:D

25 June 2009 . 9:28 PM

i feel like i have loads to say, but i dont know what. i feel like i'm so dead, i want to leave this house.
i need a hug. yours(: i want to hide in your room, forever and ever(: I'm gonna say this in advance. Happy birthday<3

ily dear(: God wants me to know... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.



Thank you.i needed this.

24 June 2009 . 10:02 PM

I should have started on everything way earlier.

Now i'm getting stressed cos i still have loads to do. And not being able to do the side-roll consistently is getting to me. But thats not the point. Some guy thinks he's damn cool and step only la. To think he's so different from the other guy who has the same name as him. Christ bearing. Attitude only.


okay i'm seriously being very dumb getting worked up by this kind of thing-.- stop stop STOP!


babe don't be too angry kays? cheer up(: sorry i cant help more than that. sorry.

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23 June 2009 . 10:55 PM

The key to happiness is to do the things you love with the people you love.(Night at the museum 2)


i'm so hopeless, i can't even set my mind to doing my work, to do what i am supposed to do. How can i go on to change myself and net to change others too? i have no right to tell others they are wrong when i am like that. I must change. I must set my mind to it.

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21 June 2009 . 8:57 PM

Laziness causes the downfall of many people.



nonono. i need to stop whatever i am doing now. i need to go and do what i am supposed to do. i need to find that self-discipline and that yearn for excellence in me back. i need to stop fantasizing and get back on my feet. i need to stop resting on my laurels. I feel so wrong, so outta myself. I feel as though i have changed, because of you. nonono, it shouldnt be. I need to focus again, cos i'm losing it. I need to clear my head, of everything except for things i gotta do. Help me Jesus, i need to find myself again.
Ouch,

AT yesterday was crazy, advance class was all SLAMMING. Now my left leg's hurting, and my right hip's utterly bruised-.- And we had this wrist lock cum slam that totally killed everyone. I'm so lucky cos i feel fragile then people do it more gently. But it still hurts. During first class some good whitie called TOMI come and lock me like one kind, baby lock nikio everything come out-.-


Now, i havent forgotten you dear(:

ELIZABETH!(:

Thanks for all the times i had with you, no matter in your room or not(:
Thanks for listening to me talk rubbish always.
Thanks for making me smile, no matter what(:
Thanks for 250509(:
Thankd for the many many hugs i always get!
ILY TRUCKLOADS!<3!

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19 June 2009 . 10:09 PM

I miss people loads. Olivia! Azrael! Dinah! okay vikki dana and some of the team too although i just saw them today.But olivia and azrael's coming back tomorrow(: but az's gonna be quarantined for a week.-.-

I wanna go back school quick! But the ministry might be extending the school hols for a few more weeks cos of swine flu-.- I'm so gonna rot at home and fail my tests and fitness testing when i get back to school after school hols. Gotta start working on everything and improve (: 'What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?'


Yesterday while stretching after gym liz asked this question, and it struck me that i would want to do loads of things. I would want to tell people my true heart-felt feelings, like thank you and all. (okay for those i dislike i wont tell them i dislike them cos it would spoil their last day). I would wanna travel all around the world(wait one day not enough) and spend time with the people i love:AZRAEL!(: vikki and olivia and some of those in the team and some others too. (: <3!


Live each day like there's no tomorrow.

I think it would really help me appreciate and enjoy my life more if i learn to do as the phrase says, for i would try and live my life to the fullest each and everyday. But i guess some things cant be helped, but i would try to live my life better each day(: Catch me before i fall.


The phrase is really cool right? It's actually the title of a book. The book's really sad, cos it writes about someone's life that was so horrid and lack of love and everything that is needed. Yeah, i guess now i finally realise i've been really idiotic over my life, cos there are many others with a much worse life than mine. I guess i just have to accept and learn how to face it.(:


OLIVIA! I'm gonna re-do yours cos its really short. This way vikki wont be so happy cos hers is longer:P


Thanks for always being there for me, no matter what happens.
Thanks for always trying to make me feel not-so-left-out although i can be irritating at times.
Thanks for bearing with me all these times when i am so freakishly irritating, esp. primary school.
Thanks for always making me smile, with that crazy retarded funny personality of yours.
Thanks for all your advice you gave me.
Thanks for that note you wrote me last year,which really was touching.
ILY OLIVIA BU!(: <3!

17 June 2009 . 6:13 PM

Soul-searching!

I think my attitude is coming back again! Ohdear and its back cos of her, which in a minute i shall blast everything out. And my laziness is coming back too! Crap i really have to find my self-control back. i'm becoming too addicted to the computer and having fun!


You think its funny, all the jokes you've made. You think its cute, the way you say things, and treat people. You take me for granted, do you? You think i'm your dog, is it? You treat me like i have no options, no emotions. I'm not your robot to order around. And i will make my own choice someday, without YOU interfering, and god bless i would be truly happy then. And you would know that i have never felt truly happy with you. You think of no one but you only, and do things only thinking about yourself. Have you ever thought that you are dragging two others with you? I admit, i'm still too young to be released from your clutches fully, but don't i have a choice? I think you're the same as 'her', or even worse. And you think the way you say others perfectly nice names are funny, dont you. Mind you, its insulting. Selfish, uncaring creature. You're a disappointment.


*Hey seniors, don't think wrong. It isnt any of you. please don't be offended or something.

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16 June 2009 . 4:50 PM

Boo.

Mum's not allowing me to go for cf meeting! Oh crap i've been looking forward to it for long. Next time then(: But i reaaally wanna go! A barbeque! And i think there'll be games and some fun stuff, maybe sharing? Awww i'm missing so much! Nevermind, people who's going, have fun!(: (i bet vikki would:DDD)

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15 June 2009 . 8:05 PM

That person.


i'm seriously becoming a pig. I should go and run, but i didnt. OMG! fitness testing gonna drop la.


Okayy, next dedication(:


OLIVIA BU!(:

Ahaha, this girl uh, the crazy one that is always there for me(: all the things she do is damn funny la. Johnny johnny johnny johnny whoosh johnny whoosh!:DDD

Thanks for the note you wrote me last year(: <3! Thanks for all the advice!

14 June 2009 . 7:51 PM

VIKKI!

Thanks for the letter you wrote to me last year.
Thanks for changing me.
Thanks for giving me a wake-up call.
Thanks for being there for me.
Thanks for all the advice you gave me.
Thanks for helping me get through life.
ILY vikki!(: <3

hope our plan would work(:

12 June 2009 . 10:18 PM

I'm so glad something is finally done. I'm so glad that now people are standing up and speaking out loud, cos i'm sick of being the one to be picked on everytime, and i'm sick of always being hurt, and crying to myself.

I'm so glad now, for people notice my misery, and they want to stand up, to do something brave, and i'm thankful for that. Thank you glynis! I know it wouldnt be easy for you, but i'm willing to be there for you and help you face it. ily!

I've been bearing with you for long, and now i shall stand up to you! And now i shall not be alone, and i will not be knocked down by you, for the team will be behind me, and they will speak with me. Now you are the one who is truly alone, and only true change can help you. I do not care what 'charm' you have, or how many spare tyres you have at your disposal, but this time round you will not get out of this.


Team, i love all of you.Thanks vikki,dana,nadiah,glynis,aqilah,syafiqah and emily, cos you guys really rock and gave me the strength. <3(:

10 June 2009 . 9:23 PM

Monday
game was alright, played GK GS GD(: I thought 1st quarter i played quite not bad luhhs, then 3rd quarter had this reaaally tall defender on me, and the GD also come guard me then i kena squashed like one kind. Couldnt move at all. Until VIKKI came to the rescue and shot a couple of far shots that went chop chop then the GD get off me(:

I thought that quarter was quite okay, 7 attempts and 3 shots(i totally missed the first 4, rim also never hit). Last quarter i played with the very rough shooter, got one she bang into me she fall and give me the not happy face-.- After that she angry with me, bang me alot of times. I thought the whole team played great, although noraida said we werent that good. I love the part where Liz was playing C! So many beautiful interceptions! And Vikki! Wonderful shots at the end. And the offers were not bad, nobody had too big a problem finding people to pass too. Only the accuracy of the pass needs to be worked on.

08 June 2009 . 3:18 PM

Got a match laterr, and we're two man(or should i say two girls) down, cos olivia and sarah's overseas.

Geez, i really have to play well later. Gotta focus and press on. I think its my stamina thats bringing me down. Have to work on it. Play well later! FOCUS!

07 June 2009 . 4:56 PM

Sign.

I reaaally hope i'll play well for the next match. Things havent been going too well. I need to go and do my hw! Anyone give me an idea how to write a story with the title'change myself'? i gotta write it in chinese and in 600-700 words!

I need someone to crap everything out! Ohwell but everyones not doing too good either. I wanna go out but theres training everyday and AT and stuff going on...haiz. i miss school!): wanna go back fast. HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLIVIA!<3


AT yesterday was awesomeness! All the SP colour belts werent there so it wasnt that fun, but the juniors were quite okay as well. First training was really slack, cos got alot of newbies so Sensei did alot of basics.

Weapon training was the best! Trained with the bokken(wooden sword). The front-back shuffle plus slashing of the sword was really tiring! Then did this drill with Tomi that had us slashing at each other-awesome! Did a couple more drills and then had this one where we ended up poking people in the stomach. Ouch! someone beside me kena knuckled in the side and hopped around the dojo(training place). Lol. Alrights, byeee blog!

05 June 2009 . 3:09 PM

Cant believe it.



Alrights, i'm so bored!
Another song! i love this one manzz(:


Breathless

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless


how i wish it was true.

03 June 2009 . 11:16 PM

Quick feet.
Better stamina.
Faster reaction.
Tighter defence.
Better positioning.
Higher elevation.
Wide view.
FOCUS. alright.

quite a crappy two weeks luhh, worse then usual. but ohwell, some people made it up, so(:

last week
Monday
yeah, still thinking. but i'm so glad olivia told me what i should do. at least i have an idea(: ily olivia and elizabeth and vikki who tried to help me!<3

Tuesday
woah the english holiday hw like alot only! 200++ spelling words plus dunno what else more!

Wednesday and Thursday
The chinese paper 2 damn hard la! like although i didnt leave as many balnks as last time still got lor! but i tried my best(: no cf this week cos must pack stuff! ):

Friday
lugged everything back home, arms almost break la! But th best thing is, i pass my chinese! yessar! finally la, somemore pass quite okay(: went for chalet! had a swim with my aunt at the pool. Was fun luhh, only she swim quite slow(no offence:P) then i slack. I saw this damn gross thing at the pool. got like 1 teenage couple messing around with each other in th pool lor, damn gross. We swam too long, when we reach back the bbq only left chicken wings=.= end up for dinner i ate like 8 chicken wings.

Saturday
woke up, went swimming again! now with aunt and two cousins(: then we take turn with the goggles and go see the hole at the bottom of the swimming pool where you can go see people downstairs:P then got 1 time got one angmoh stare at us we zhao damn fast.

After that me and my cousins went to walk around at ehub, then i saw someone that look like yuan min! Omg i really thought her sia, look damn alike i swear.

BBq-ed again! finally got to eat my crabsticks(: cop-ed like 6 or 7 then the rest give cousins. swimming!(yet again) This time with four cousins! This one was the best luhhh. We swam loads and joked around like nobodys business(: Ahhh! my dearest cousin jiaxin was damn funny la! cos she very heavy then me and another cousin go climb on her make her walk all around the swimming pool jumping like frog! Then we had this competition between us see who can hold breath swim the furthest. Eh, i never go knock my teeth again okay, this time although th pool only 1.2m i go wear goggles de hor. ended up second:P




THIS week
Monday
match! seriously, i played HORRIBLE. Kena thrashed 17-50. knew i played damn bad le someone still say so much, crap.


Tuesday & Wednesday
gym and courtwork. Courtwork killer!!! all the jumping and running almost killed my legs. i wanna go cf! unfortunately the next one will be after th hols): AT was damn slack, but quite fun uhh. havent seen christopher for damn long uhh, he and his new friend like action only. Then when we doing weapons training imran's jo broke into half! Omg damn funny! heart pain la he 20++ dollars for one lor. Sandy took us for training, dunno why sensei didnt but yeah. And for like 2 techniques had to do with this small kid of 4=.= damn hard to do tenchi nage(idk if i spell correctly) with a small kid yknow.