25 May 2009 . 11:46 AM

24 May 2009 . 1:26 PM

Superhuman
Weak
I had been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat, on my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman

Strong
Since I been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
How love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it?s going gone away
My only weakness is you, only reason is you
Every minute with you I feel like I can do anything
Going, going I'm gone away! Love!

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
Superhuman


going to grandma house later to pick up my homework, before going school. damn bored now, want to go back school. still have a lot of things in school i need to bring back home! i wonder how am i gonna lug everything back on friday.

major decision.
why make my life so crappy,
why make me so upset.
i have 2 paths to choose,
why make me choose 1 of them?
i just want to be happy.
why make it so hard?
to think,
i might leave you someday.
you never knew how i felt,
and how i cried over it.
and i dont ever want to go home anymore.

Labels: decisions.

23 May 2009 . 8:57 PM

updateeees.

Monday
Lunch was disgusting. Was eating halfway then suddenly people around were like 'eh, got headless bird there leh.' didnt know where was it at first, until dana beside me was like 'Omg there's a headless bird beside me!' I saw it, it was damn gross, and the head had blood on it. Ewww. think it flew too close to the ceiling fan then kena. Couldnt eat after that.

Went for first National league game, drew 24 all. And while waiting for the U14's the finish their match before our match we went to kallang leisure park! mdm lee treated us a desert each;thanks mdm lee! almost couldnt make it in time back for warmup.

Tuesday & Wednesday
Nothing much, cf was awesome. Gerry shared about loving people you dont really like and trying to build a relationship with that person. Even if the person shoots you back and wouldnt take your advice to heart, we should try again, and keep trying. Take a step back if the person really doesnt listen, and try again. I think its really useful, cos i've been getting very angry due to people who has a big attitude problem and thinks they are the biggest. i mean, wth? nobody's the best in the world, so why treat everyone like your slave? So immature, i think, and to shoot people like crazy? so childish and dumb, cos you just missed a chance to become a better person.

Thursday,Friday & Saturday


just getting tired and stuff. loads of stuff going on, gotta study harder and bring my results up. Ran 2.4 for warmup! tired lor, somemore under hot sun.

went to help for trials, damn bored. Me and olivia chen took one group, but then most of the time they stare at other groups not interested in what we explaining lor. Until olivia and me also sian. tomorrow going lesson!!! i dont wanna go but mum still forcing me go cos i missed today's. boo.



Sports Leaders 2008-09!

i miss all of the memories we had, all the organization of camps and sports day.
i miss all the happenings at pulau ubin.
i miss all the messing about in the leaders room.
i miss all the punishment we had together.
i miss all the joking we had together.
i miss all the craziness.
i miss all the hard times we had.
i miss all the encouraging of one another.

Saw the paka photos sarah uploaded on facebook, and kinda got sad that i didnt go for that one last time we would be all together. What could i do when my mum only allowed me to go for one overseas trip? i wanted to go real bad, but i knew my njoo would flip if i chose not to go for cross straits. ohwell. now we could never be together once again, cos dongyoon's in korea. and many of us just hadnt got the time to meet up and stuff.

Loveees-EXCO!

secretary;vikki(:
assistant secretary;sarah min!
treasurer;meihua(:
cameraman;zhengming!
videogirl;peier!


damn you, cant you just let me have my own life? it isnt funny you know, i cant stand it anymore. i know its difficult for you too, but cant you just let me be? am i not old enough to be trusted?

Labels: decisions.

17 May 2009 . 2:59 PM

Haiz.

crap. now everytime i wanna use the computer not for homework, i'll have to pay my aunt two bucks per hour cos she says later com spoil then she pay unfair. gosh i bolui already plus wanna use computer also must pay i'm so DEAD. Been doing some work, but seems like my homework and things that i need to study is endless. major module tests all coming up, maths mid-year too. chinese! heng laoshi gave us shortened list of what we need to study if not i'm so gonna die and fail my mm test. thank you laoshi! i must go and study hard for my tests, and live up to not only other's expectations but MINE!



Copied from vikki's blog(:

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

(Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it
meant he would die.

true love means you're willing to give it all for a person, even if it means your life, just to keep them safe

i think its really meaningful, cos it shows that love is unconditional, and that when love is unconditional it doesnt matter if its losing your own life. Only saving the other person or making him/her happy would matter to you.(:

Labels: decisions.

15 May 2009 . 8:39 PM

My future decided

You hold the future in your hands
You know my dreams and you have a plan
And as you light my way, I'll follow you

My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My minds made up
And you are the only one for me

Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that I am, I am yours

You hold the earth in your command
You are the rock on which I stand
And as I live each day, I'll follow you

My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My minds made up
And you are the only one for me

Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that I am, I am yours

Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people and we won't be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will not be shaken

Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people and we won't be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will not be shaken

Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that I am, I am yours




Thursday
nothing much happened, went to gym, damn tired.Had this talk by Dr Seet about bgr, thats all. I think he gets the message across to us more clearly than any other teacher or adult and we would understand it easily and know exactly what he is trying to say. And he puts it in a way that would appeal to all of us teens at this age by using something almost everyone loves: CHOCOLATES. i mean, who would have thought of using chocolates to explain about bgr? it was really smart of him to think of that. (:

Friday
Ran 2.4 in the morning, improved almost 1 min; got 14mins. Not bad, starting to improve, but need more practice to improve more. Gonna aim for 13mins next. Afternoon had training with the seniors minus those that were training with the reds. Noraida ended training like real late at 7.05, and chiong-ed like one kind to bathe and check-out.

To you:
i hope you read this. i'm sorry babe, sorry for misunderstanding you that night, for what i wrote especially, and also for jumping to conclusions. ignore what i wrote that time, cos it's wrong, what i thought it was about. i know that i wouldnt be able to feel what you're feeling now. i'm sorry that i can't help you in any way, and that i cannot share the pain with you. But i'll always be there for you if you need someone to be there, and if you dont want me to talk about it i wont. i'm sorry. <3>

Labels: decisions.

14 May 2009 . 3:36 PM

In school now, using dee's laptop.

Monday
did spelling test, finally got full marks! didnt have afternoon training cos noraida fell sick, so slacked till time to go dinner.

Tuesday
Had maths quiz, still quite confused about the angle thingys and what to write for reasons(i really have no idea). Slept in in the morning cos noraida was still sick, and gym-ed in the afternoon. The dumbell thing damn tiring! only 3kg already dying.

Wednesday
had self-training with seniors in the morning,then after lunch went off for learning journey at chinatown. went to this place called the "yuan mao guan"(i forgot what is it in english). Damn boring lor the place. Went to explore the streets cos we were early, and bought a bear(: Went to the teahouse next, and did this thing that supposingly make you destress. Had fun making the tea! Took a few pictures with olivia and vikki(:The rice dumpling and tea eggs were damn nice! There was this ice cream puff thingy that glynis bought and shared that was awesome:DDD

Cf was great, played this screaming game that had Raphael screaming like some crazyy idiot. And the chips meet boy part was really funny.

ok, gtg for gym now, blog again on friday.

Labels: decisions.

09 May 2009 . 7:37 PM

Hosanna

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes


I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

[Chorus]
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest x2

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

[Chorus]

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth to
Eternity

[Chorus] x2

Hosanna in the highest


I'm so in love with this song after the cf band played it(: It's reaaaally nice.

Didnt do much today, just slacked around and use the com. Did some chores around
the house and had my uncle test me spelling( its kinda lame i know, but i had to
study cos my results are horrible) and still had some wrong.

Nat or vikki! May i know if there's anything i can do for cf? i feel bad cos vikki's
doing almost everything and i'm not even doing anything.i wanna help.

I'm still thinking about stuff, like all those vikki made me think about when i
chatted with her. I have to change, and i have to think of how to.
I realised that all that she brought up was true, and was caused by me, not the
people around me. It's what i do that made them do what they did.
Vikki, thanks for all that.(: Please continue helping me change for the better, and
tell me when i'm not doing things right. ily vikki!<3(:

Labels: decisions.

08 May 2009 . 6:22 PM

Yay! My mum finally allowed me to have a day out! Met vikki, chris and ben at newton mrt station at 9 to go to chris house for cf band practice(i went to watch only). Scott came later His house is damn cool! There's like a music room and an WINE CELLAR .

Played chinese chess with elizabeth and got thrashed real badly. Then the band took a break and came over to look at us playing. I played another round with scott and lost again, but not so badly this time(: Elizabeth played with chris and lost a lot of important pieces, and ended up the loser.
Meanwhile, ben and vikki sat nearby with no idea what on earth we were talking about. Vikki didnt even know it was chinese characters on the chess pieces:P

Zhao-ed at 12++, then went plaza sing with vikki to meet liz to watch movie. watched Star Track. i thought it was quite nice, although liz said it was boring. mrt-ed back to grandma house, yeah.(:

Finally my blog was done, after some good person killed himself trying to fix it for two hours. Thanks alot greg!(:

Should i try out as vocalist? i have no idea.

02 May 2009 . 3:09 PM

Back from camp...campfire is the best man. Love my group! Group 8 all the way!
We won the best campfire performance, which i think was great(: shall not continue already, its too long.

CF is coming along quite nicely, only that the upper sec has to extend sst to 9.30pm instead. the lower sec are gonna be helping out with the whole thing, like preparing songs and slides and so on. yeah...thats all i have to post.